I wanna cryyyy :'(
I spent I don't know how long writing up a list for things to pack for my holiday, and I had to leave it at my office.
Sakit hati tak terkataaaaaa!
I decided to write the list coz I left my baju raya at home when we went to my hubby's kampung for raya last year.
I should be packing now or writing up a new list since Soph just dozed off.
But i'm soo upset I can't think!
I just need to cool down.
Ada la hikmah tu, perhaps I missed something in the list.
Today was not a very good day.
I worked non-stop from morning till evening.
Well, I did stop to have lunch at my desk waktu lunchtime, but if I hadn't felt dizzy I prolly wouldn't have stopped coz I was so pressed for time.
I didn't manage to squeeze in Zumba too.
All I did was go to the class at half past 1, recorded the attendance, collected some fees, then went straight back to my office.
I have to say, I am a bit pissed about some things.
Please allow me to be vague.
I need to vent.
So.. it is confirmed.. I don't like it when people slow me down because they can't do things on their own.
I hate it when people ask me to wait when we could each go separately and have things done in half the time.
I don't mind if the person needs my help or if the person wants my company.
If you know me, you'd know I don't mind helping out. I am not the type to
berkira.
However, it absolutely annoys me when a person slows me down because there wasn't anyone else to make her 'not alone' or 'not on her own'.
Not because it's unsafe or anything like that.
I would gladly accompany anyone if it's for safety reasons.
Sometimes I even insist if the person seems to want to wing it at a place I deem unsafe.
This is when a person simply can't carry herself alone or do things on her own.
Everything they do need to be done with someone in the same shoes.
The more identical the shoes, the better.
I know I used to be like that too when I was much younger and more immature.
But I would like to think I tried not to be a burden to anyone.
Why do I have a feeling I'd have to face this much longer than I anticipated.
Sabar...
Perhaps it's me who's much more aggressive now than most people are.
I know I have less patience about dealing with this kinda thing nowadays.
I feel like I've had it up to here with bearing with the attitudes and impositions of others when they don't give me or my needs a second thought.
I hardly think i'm being unsincere. Tell me again why I should bend over backwards, paying (more than I bargained for) for other people's selfish actions? At the same time sacrificing the needs of those people I actually care about?
In short, I would sacrifice my wanting to do things quicker on my own if I believe it would at least be of great benefit to the person I'm doing it for.
In most cases though, they could've gotten the job done quicker and more efficiently if they'd done it on their own too. So maybe the problem lies in them not prioritising getting the job done, but prioritising having someone/anyone to do it with instead.
Conclusion,
I guess you've got to be cruel (to some) to be kind (to others) sometimes.
I'm not referring to crimes.
I don't endorse crimes of any kind.
I'm just talking about who we should aim to please.
We can't please everyone, so choose who you will please, wisely. -
Deensy(haha. am making myself appear quotable :P)
Back to my original dilemma.
Do you find it stressful to pack for a vacation?
Have you ever been successful at travelling light?
And does it bother you as much as it bothers me, when you forget to bring something important (to you at least) despite your best efforts?